Billy Christopher Handley
| Location | Swanley, Kent |
| Age | 1 month, 9 days |
| Cause of Death | Cot Death/Sudden Infant Death Syndrome |
| Date of Birth | 26/05/2006 |
| Date of Death | 05/07/2006 |
| Visitors | 16,255 since 08/01/2007 |
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I can only apologise for not visiting all of your angels sites recently, but
with Billy's anniversary's and summer holidays, i haven't been able to come on
here much, i am back now and will hopefully be able to find my way around this
new site to light candles again, thank you for all of your support xxxxx
Billy Christopher Handley
26-05-06 -- 05-07-06
First child of Natasha Doyle
loved and missed forever and always x
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When i was pregnant with billy, i used to sing a song from mary poppins to my
bump...its only now, that he has gone, that i realise how important the words
are, and how i didn't realise at the time how much i would wish he really hadn't
gone to sleep that final night...
Stay awake, don't rest your head
Don't lie down upon your bed
While the moon drifts in the skies
Stay awake, don't close your eyes
Though the world is fast asleep
Though your pillow's soft and deep
You're not sleepy as you seem
Stay awake, don't nod and dream
I miss my little man so much, and i apologise to everyone for not visiting your
angels sites much lately, i promise i will get stronger soon and will then be
able to light daily candles again, i just cant face it at the moment, and i'm so
sorry xxxxx
Thank you to all the friends that have come into my life through GTS, i dont
know what i would do without you all, you all know who you are,
Lots of love to all of you, and all of your precious angels too,
Natasha xxxxx
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Billy was snatched away from me when he was 6 weeks old due to SIDs, he will be
forever in my thoughts and i miss him more than words could ever say.
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An angel with the book of life wrote down my baby's birth,
and whispered as she closed the book, "too beautiful for earth" xXx
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He was a truly beaultiful baby who meant the world to me and everyone thet knew
him and met him. He went through so much in his short little life, yet never
complained, never grumbled, just lay in his cot, smile and look about being
nosey. He bought me so much happiness, and taught me a lot of very important
things, and I will hold his memories in my hearts until the day comes for us to
meet again one day in heaven. He most certainly did me very proud, my "little
soldior" and I will never ever forget him, he was and will always be my little
man, who i will love and miss forever and always.
Billy was born with a condition called Gastroschisis which he had surgery to
repair when he was 24 hours and then again at 62 hours old, and he got over this
extremeley well, and became a healthy beautiful little baby just like any other.
he was due to come home from a 5 week stay in hospital...the house was all ready
for him to arrive the last night me and his daddy said goodnight to him, when he
went to sleep and decided he was too tired, and he became the most beautiful
angel to ever arrive in heaven, i just hope he is sitting on his cloud watching
over all of us who loved him more than anything in the world, and who miss him
more and more each day, I love you Billy, always and forever, mummy's little
soldior, just you have lots of fun up there with all the other little angels,
and Mummy will see you again one day, until then, you will forever be in my
thoughts and my heart xxxXxxx
You ask me how I'm feeling,
but do you really want to know?
The moment I try telling you
You say you have to go
How can I tell you,
what it's been like for me
I am haunted, I am broken
By things that you don't see
You ask me how I'm holding up,
but do you really care?
The second I try to speak my heart,
You start squirming in your chair.
Because I am so lonely,
you see, no one comes around,
I'll take the words I want to say
And quietly choke them down.
Everyone avoids me now,
Because they don't know what to say
They tell me I'll be there for you,
then turn and walk away.
Call me if you need me,
that's what everybody said,
But how can I call you and scream
into the phone,
My God, my child is dead?
No one will let me
say the words I need to say
Why does a mothers grief
scare everyone away?
I am tired of pretending
as my heart pounds in my chest,
I say things to make you comfortable,
but my soul finds no rest.
How can I tell you things
that are too sad to be told,
of the helplessness of holding a child
who in your arms grows cold?
Maybe you can tell me,
How should one behave,
who's had to follow their child’s casket,
watched it perched above a grave?
You cannot imagine
what it was like for me that day
to place a final kiss upon that box,
and have to turn and walk away.
If you really love me,
and I believe you do,
if you really want to help me,
here is what I need from you.
Sit down beside me,
reach out and take my hand,
Say "My friend, I've come to listen,
I want to understand."
Just hold my hand and listen
that's all you need to do,
And if by chance I shed a tear,
it's alright if you do to.
I swear that I'll remember
till the day I'm very old,
the friend who sat and held my hand
and let me bare my soul
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You will always be my little boy
Till my very dying day,
The Love and Pride I feel for you
Will never go away.
I miss holding you in my arms
Or you lying on my chest,
Stroking your tiny angel face
Just watching while you rest.
Each day we spent together
You gave me so much joy,
No one could ever make me smile
Like my precious baby boy.
Then that night you went to sleep
And never woke again,
Now all I'm left is emptiness,
Loneliness and pain.
Each morning I wake up
I can't believe that you're not there,
I miss my little man so much
The pain's too hard to bear.
I'll always Love You Billy
Till the day I die,
But just remember that you'll always be
'Mummy's Little Guy'.
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I am drawn, quietly to his grave to check on him,
Just as I'd have been drawn quietly to his crib.
I trim the grass around his marker,
And dream of trimming bangs from his forehead.
I place flowers in his vase,
And dream of placing kisses on his cheek.
I hold his memory dear to my heart,
And dream of of holding him in my arms.
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Below is a poem that was read at Billy's funeral:-
If I knew it would be the last time
that I'd see you fall asleep,
I would tuck you in more tightly
and pray the Lord, your soul to keep.
If I knew it would be the last time
that I’d walk out the door,
I would give you a hug and kiss
and then run back for one more.
If I knew it would be the last time,
I could spare an extra minute
to stop and say "I love you,"
instead of assuming you would know I do.
If I knew it would be the last time
I would be there to share your day,
Well I'm sure you'll have so many more,
so I can let just this one slip away.
For surely there's always tomorrow
to make up for an oversight,
And we always get a second chance
to make everything just right.
There will always be another day
to say "I love you,"
And certainly there's another chance
to say our "Anything I can do?"
But just in case I might be wrong,
and today is all I get,
I'd like to say how much I love you
and I hope we never forget.
Tomorrow is not promised to anyone,
young or old alike,
And today may be the last chance
you get to hold your loved one tight.
So if you're waiting for tomorrow,
why not do it today?
For if tomorrow never comes,
you'll surely regret the day,
That you didn't take that extra time
for a smile, a hug, or a kiss
And you were too busy to grant someone,
what turned out to be their one last wish.
So hold your loved ones close today,
and whisper in their ear,
Tell them how much you love them
and that you'll always hold them dear
Take time to say "I'm sorry," "Thank you,"
"Please forgive me," or "It's okay."
And if tomorrow never comes,
you'll have no regrets about today
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To My Gorgeous Little Billy...
On the day God took you
I thought that I would die
I wondered where the time went?
I asked alot of whys??
With people all around me
I felt alone inside
From all their words of comfort,
I couldn't seem to hide,
I thought I might be dreaming
That I'd wake and find you here,
I thought "This can't be happening."
As I wiped another tear.
On the day that you were laid to rest
My heart broke yet again,
I wondered if the pain would end,
But mostly, I wondered when??
It's hard to be without you,
At times the days seem long,
Sometimes I just sit crying,
When there's really nothing wrong.
I wish we'd had more time,
Before your life was done.
I hope your resting peacefully,
My precious Baby Son xx
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I would just like to thank everyone that takes the time to write messages and
light candles for Billy, This web page is such a big comfort for me and it means
the world to me that people take the time to write such lovely things, Thank You
again, x
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♥♥ Happy Birthday Heaven`s Little Prince ♥♥
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You’re wondering if I’ll celebrate
My birthday (way up here)
I know you’re missing me today
I feel your essence near.
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God planned a special day for me
He told me with a wink
He’d ordered me a special cake
(It’s Angel food, I think)
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I’m getting lots of hugs from God
He’s really good at that
And every time that I walk by
He gives my head a pat
♥♥
Balloons will fill the streets for me
They float up through the clouds
And we have lots of clowns up here
That make us laugh out loud
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There is a birthday carousel
Jeweled horses ride the wind
With music playing oh so sweet…
The magic never ends
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I’ve made so many friends, you see
We laugh and play and sing
We ride our bikes and play jump rope
And sleep in Angel’s wings
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We’ll have our cake and ice cream
And open gifts, surprise!
But we don’t blow out our candles here
Instead, they light the skies
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♥♥ Heaven`s Little Prince ♥♥
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You are mammy`s little prince
But you’re in heaven now
She dream`s that she could hold you
And wish`s she knew how
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You will always be your mammy`s prince
She’ll always keep you in her heart
Until some day she see`s you
Then you`s won’t be apart
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So be happy little prince
In Gods heaven up above
And everyday till you meet again
She will send you all her love
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♥♥ TINY LITTLE HALO ♥♥
Tiny little fingers
Tiny little toes
Tiny rosebud lips of pink
A miracle I know
I couldn't wait to see you
And hold you close to me
But found, instead, that some things
Are never meant to be
Tiny little halo
Above your tiny head
I know that God has chosen you
To be with him instead
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♥ Goodnight Godbless Billy ♥
♥ Sweetdreams Baby Angel ♥
♥ Love Tina (Callum Coulson`s Mammy)♥
Tina Coulson May 26, 2009
Happy 3rd Birthday Darling xXx
Are there birthdays in Heaven?
Does the angel blow his horn?
Announcing to everybody
That this is the day you were born?
Can the stars be your balloons
And angel food your cake?
Presents wrapped in moonbeams
All the angels helped to make.
So I'll whisper a little prayer today
Asking everyone up above
To sing you a Happy Birthday song
And give you all my love.
With all my love, now and forever, Mummy xxXxx
Natasha Doyle (Mummy)May 26, 2009
I stood by your bed last night;
I came to have a peep.
I could see that you were crying you found it hard to sleep.
I spoke to you softly as you brushed away a tear,
'It's me, I haven't left you, I'm well, I'm fine, I'm here.'
I was close to you at breakfast,
I watched you pour the tea,
You were thinking of the many times, your hands reached to me.
I was with you at the shops today; your arms were getting sore.
I longed to take your parcels, I wish I could do more.
I was with you at my grave today; you tend it with such care.
I want to re-assure you, that I'm not lying there.
I flew with you towards the house, as you fumbled for your key.
I gently landed on you; I smiled and said, 'it's me.'
You looked so very tired, and sank into a chair. I tried so hard to let you know, that I was there.
It's possible for me, to be so near you everyday.
To say to you with certainty, 'I never went away.'
You sat there very quietly, then smiled, I think you knew...
in the stillness of that evening, I was very close to you.
The day is over... I smile and watch you yawning and say 'good-night, God bless, I'll see you in the morning.'
And when the time is right for you to cross the brief divide,
I'll fly across to greet you and we'll stand, side by side.
I have so many things to show you,
there is so much for you to see.
Be patient, live your journey out...
then come home to be with me.
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Xxx Elaine Riley Xxx (Friend)April 28, 2009
SKY BUNNIES
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The sky is full of bunny clouds
So soft and fat and white,
I wonder if they're hiding eggs
For angels to find with delight.
Because angels like Easter as well, you know,
And there's no reason why
There shouldn't be an Easter hunt
In meadows in the sky.
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Sharon (Friend)April 9, 2009
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Sometimes it's hard to understand
To see the reason why,
Sometimes it's hard to find the words
To say that last goodbye.
Sometimes it's hard to look ahead
With eyes still filled with tears,
But all our cherished memories
Will live on through the years.
And though there are no answers
The questions still remain,
Sometimes we just can't comprehend
Or understand the pain.
Sometimes it's hard to look beyond
The rainclouds in the sky,
Though all our cherished memories
Will stay as time goes by.
Sometimes when we close our eyes
The only thing we see,
Are moments that are long gone by
Of how things used to be.
Sometimes we need to just let go,
Let tears fall as they may,
Reliving cherished memories
That never fade away.
(Author unknown)
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THANK YOU FOR ALL YOUR SUPPORT FOR ME AND MY ANGELS.
LOVE ALWAYS ELAINE XXXXXXXX
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Xxx Elaine Riley Xxx (Friend)March 31, 2009
YOUR SPECIAL ANGEL
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When you hear an Angel softly whisper to you,
In the light of the day, or the darkness of the night.
When you feel the presence of an Angel caress you,
And see their beautiful wings spread in graceful flight.
When something inside you just makes you smile,
Or you feel a warmth suddenly wash over your heart.
When your dreams are beautiful and include an Angel,
As you lay with your head on your pillow, in the dark.
When you're alone, and everything is quiet around you,
Yet you can hear the sweetest lullaby being sung.
When waking up in the morning, any troubles feel lighter,
From speaking with an Angel, before a new day has begun.
Then you know I am the Angel who you can feel and hear;
Your special Angel from Heaven who will always be so near.
I'm no longer able to be here in body, but I'm with you everyday,
As my loving heart, my soul, and my spirit, will never be far away.
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Love Always Elaine xxxxxx
Xxx Elaine Riley Xxx (Friend)March 18, 2009
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Those we love remain with us
for love itself lives on
and cherished memories never fade
because a loved ones gone
those we love can never be
more than a thought apart
for as long as there is memory
they'll live on in the heart.
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There is a special place in our hearts
for those we have loved
for those who have loved us
without question, without a word or promise
there is a special place
where there is no pain or fear
where love flows freely
there is a special place to rest
in our hearts forever.
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I know how much I miss you
I feel an emptiness inside
It shows in everything I do
It's something I can't hide
I simply miss you being there
Life seems dull and flat
Without you nothings quite the same
I can't say more than that
But one day we will meet again
I know that this is true
But everyday until then
I know i'll just be missing you.
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Love always elaine xxxxxxxx
Xxx Elaine Riley Xxx (Friend)March 10, 2009
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There are angels in the heavens
there are angels on the ground
there are angels all around you
just waiting to be found...
So when you're feeling lonely
or just a little blue
open your eyes to see the angels
they are there waiting for you...
Don't forget about these angels
during all of your good times too
for they like to share your happiness
and the joys that come to you...
They will wrap their wings around you
to protect and guide you through
all the sad and tragic moments
that this life can throw at you...
They are sent to you from heaven
from our father up above
so remember to look for the angels
they'll show you all gods love...
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Have you ever truly heard
an angel whisper in your ear?
their voices are soft and comforting
letting you know you have nothing to fear...
If you listen very carefully
you might just hear their sweet voice
whispering to you of gods perfect love
and all things that make you rejoice...
They do their very best
to always watch over you
to keep you safe and happy
in everything you do...
So next time you feel lonely
kind of scared or feeling blue
just whisper to your angel
and listen...for they will whisper back to you...
xxx ~~ Love Always ~ Elaine ~~ xxx
Xxx Elaine Riley Xxx (Friend)March 7, 2009
I cannot dial your number
I can't get through to you
I called the operator
She did all that she could do
There is no code to heaven
I cannot place the call
No numbers left to try
I reckon i've tried them all
If heaven had a phone
I'd ring it every day
If heaven had a phone
Theres things I want to say
Tell you that I love you
Miss you since you went away
And how much I prayed to god
That he could have let you stay
Oh darling, if heaven had a phone
Theres things I want to know
Things I want to tell you
How do you feel?
Should I stay or should I go?
Are you looking over me
Do you see me cry a tear
Questions I want to ask
Answers I need to hear
If heaven had a phone
I'd ring it every day
My life has had no meaning
Since the day god took you away
I only know more sadness
More tears again today
Maybe one day i'll smile without you
Until then I will always cry
One day the sun may shine for me
Like it did for you and I
My life was for tomorrow
Now my life is yesterday
I cannot face this world alone
Please show me the way
If heaven had a phone
I'd ring you every day
If heaven had a phone
I'd hear your voice, know that you're okay
I just want to speak to heaven
please do you have a direct line
Operator says no number
But your loved one says they're doing fine
Love always Elaine x♥x♥
Xxx Elaine Riley Xxx (Friend)March 4, 2009
You are invited to Baby Angel's party in the clouds on 1st March...it will last all day long...I really hope you can make it. lots of love xxxxxxxxxxx
Sallyann West February 27, 2009
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