| Location | Swanley, Kent |
| Age | 1 month, 9 days |
| Cause of Death | Cot Death/Sudden Infant Death Syndrome |
| Date of Birth | 26/05/2006 |
| Date of Death | 05/07/2006 |
| Visitors | 17,921 since 08/01/2007 |
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I can only apologise for not visiting all of your angels sites recently, but with Billy's
anniversary's and summer holidays, i haven't been able to come on here much, i am back now and will
hopefully be able to find my way around this new site to light candles again, thank you for all of
your support xxxxx
Billy Christopher Handley
26-05-06 -- 05-07-06
First child of Natasha Doyle
loved and missed forever and always x
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When i was pregnant with billy, i used to sing a song from mary poppins to my bump...its only now,
that he has gone, that i realise how important the words are, and how i didn't realise at the time
how much i would wish he really hadn't gone to sleep that final night...
Stay awake, don't rest your head
Don't lie down upon your bed
While the moon drifts in the skies
Stay awake, don't close your eyes
Though the world is fast asleep
Though your pillow's soft and deep
You're not sleepy as you seem
Stay awake, don't nod and dream
I miss my little man so much, and i apologise to everyone for not visiting your angels sites much
lately, i promise i will get stronger soon and will then be able to light daily candles again, i
just cant face it at the moment, and i'm so sorry xxxxx
Thank you to all the friends that have come into my life through GTS, i dont know what i would do
without you all, you all know who you are,
Lots of love to all of you, and all of your precious angels too,
Natasha xxxxx
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Billy was snatched away from me when he was 6 weeks old due to SIDs, he will be forever in my
thoughts and i miss him more than words could ever say.
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An angel with the book of life wrote down my baby's birth,
and whispered as she closed the book, "too beautiful for earth" xXx
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He was a truly beaultiful baby who meant the world to me and everyone thet knew him and met him. He
went through so much in his short little life, yet never complained, never grumbled, just lay in his
cot, smile and look about being nosey. He bought me so much happiness, and taught me a lot of very
important things, and I will hold his memories in my hearts until the day comes for us to meet again
one day in heaven. He most certainly did me very proud, my "little soldior" and I will never ever
forget him, he was and will always be my little man, who i will love and miss forever and always.
Billy was born with a condition called Gastroschisis which he had surgery to repair when he was 24
hours and then again at 62 hours old, and he got over this extremeley well, and became a healthy
beautiful little baby just like any other. he was due to come home from a 5 week stay in
hospital...the house was all ready for him to arrive the last night me and his daddy said goodnight
to him, when he went to sleep and decided he was too tired, and he became the most beautiful angel
to ever arrive in heaven, i just hope he is sitting on his cloud watching over all of us who loved
him more than anything in the world, and who miss him more and more each day, I love you Billy,
always and forever, mummy's little soldior, just you have lots of fun up there with all the other
little angels, and Mummy will see you again one day, until then, you will forever be in my thoughts
and my heart xxxXxxx
You ask me how I'm feeling,
but do you really want to know?
The moment I try telling you
You say you have to go
How can I tell you,
what it's been like for me
I am haunted, I am broken
By things that you don't see
You ask me how I'm holding up,
but do you really care?
The second I try to speak my heart,
You start squirming in your chair.
Because I am so lonely,
you see, no one comes around,
I'll take the words I want to say
And quietly choke them down.
Everyone avoids me now,
Because they don't know what to say
They tell me I'll be there for you,
then turn and walk away.
Call me if you need me,
that's what everybody said,
But how can I call you and scream
into the phone,
My God, my child is dead?
No one will let me
say the words I need to say
Why does a mothers grief
scare everyone away?
I am tired of pretending
as my heart pounds in my chest,
I say things to make you comfortable,
but my soul finds no rest.
How can I tell you things
that are too sad to be told,
of the helplessness of holding a child
who in your arms grows cold?
Maybe you can tell me,
How should one behave,
who's had to follow their child’s casket,
watched it perched above a grave?
You cannot imagine
what it was like for me that day
to place a final kiss upon that box,
and have to turn and walk away.
If you really love me,
and I believe you do,
if you really want to help me,
here is what I need from you.
Sit down beside me,
reach out and take my hand,
Say "My friend, I've come to listen,
I want to understand."
Just hold my hand and listen
that's all you need to do,
And if by chance I shed a tear,
it's alright if you do to.
I swear that I'll remember
till the day I'm very old,
the friend who sat and held my hand
and let me bare my soul
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You will always be my little boy
Till my very dying day,
The Love and Pride I feel for you
Will never go away.
I miss holding you in my arms
Or you lying on my chest,
Stroking your tiny angel face
Just watching while you rest.
Each day we spent together
You gave me so much joy,
No one could ever make me smile
Like my precious baby boy.
Then that night you went to sleep
And never woke again,
Now all I'm left is emptiness,
Loneliness and pain.
Each morning I wake up
I can't believe that you're not there,
I miss my little man so much
The pain's too hard to bear.
I'll always Love You Billy
Till the day I die,
But just remember that you'll always be
'Mummy's Little Guy'.
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I am drawn, quietly to his grave to check on him,
Just as I'd have been drawn quietly to his crib.
I trim the grass around his marker,
And dream of trimming bangs from his forehead.
I place flowers in his vase,
And dream of placing kisses on his cheek.
I hold his memory dear to my heart,
And dream of of holding him in my arms.
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Below is a poem that was read at Billy's funeral:-
If I knew it would be the last time
that I'd see you fall asleep,
I would tuck you in more tightly
and pray the Lord, your soul to keep.
If I knew it would be the last time
that I’d walk out the door,
I would give you a hug and kiss
and then run back for one more.
If I knew it would be the last time,
I could spare an extra minute
to stop and say "I love you,"
instead of assuming you would know I do.
If I knew it would be the last time
I would be there to share your day,
Well I'm sure you'll have so many more,
so I can let just this one slip away.
For surely there's always tomorrow
to make up for an oversight,
And we always get a second chance
to make everything just right.
There will always be another day
to say "I love you,"
And certainly there's another chance
to say our "Anything I can do?"
But just in case I might be wrong,
and today is all I get,
I'd like to say how much I love you
and I hope we never forget.
Tomorrow is not promised to anyone,
young or old alike,
And today may be the last chance
you get to hold your loved one tight.
So if you're waiting for tomorrow,
why not do it today?
For if tomorrow never comes,
you'll surely regret the day,
That you didn't take that extra time
for a smile, a hug, or a kiss
And you were too busy to grant someone,
what turned out to be their one last wish.
So hold your loved ones close today,
and whisper in their ear,
Tell them how much you love them
and that you'll always hold them dear
Take time to say "I'm sorry," "Thank you,"
"Please forgive me," or "It's okay."
And if tomorrow never comes,
you'll have no regrets about today
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To My Gorgeous Little Billy...
On the day God took you
I thought that I would die
I wondered where the time went?
I asked alot of whys??
With people all around me
I felt alone inside
From all their words of comfort,
I couldn't seem to hide,
I thought I might be dreaming
That I'd wake and find you here,
I thought "This can't be happening."
As I wiped another tear.
On the day that you were laid to rest
My heart broke yet again,
I wondered if the pain would end,
But mostly, I wondered when??
It's hard to be without you,
At times the days seem long,
Sometimes I just sit crying,
When there's really nothing wrong.
I wish we'd had more time,
Before your life was done.
I hope your resting peacefully,
My precious Baby Son xx
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I would just like to thank everyone that takes the time to write messages and light candles for
Billy, This web page is such a big comfort for me and it means the world to me that people take the
time to write such lovely things, Thank You again, x
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MEMORIES OF YOU
Memories of you...
Will stay in my heart forever,
Memories of you...
I will always treasure.
Memories of you...
make me feel warm inside,
Memories of you...
are the love I cannot hide.
Memories of you...
help me through the day,
Memories of you...
will never fade away.
Memories of you...
are beautiful and dear,
They seem to grow still brighter
with every passing year.
Precious words by Sophia Parker
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A GUARDIAN ANGEL
Flew down from above,
To teach me a lesson
About the powers of love.
She whispers to me,
Take a hold of my hand,
There are so many things
I wish you to understand.
About the powers of love,
And all it can do,
To someone who needs
To share it with you.
A pat on the back,
A kind smile on your face,
Can make someone's life,
A much brighter place.
It doesn't take much,
To show someone you care,
To give them the love,
God gave you to share.
So please keep in mind,
All the powers you possess,
To grace someone's life,
When they're in distress.
You've been put on this earth
To bestow the powers of love,
And with those final words,
She disappeared up above.
Love Always Elaine xxxxx
Its time to rest your eyes and go to sleep, you are one of the brightest stars up in the skys
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Loads of love now and always sweetheart xx
HAPPY NEW YEAR 2009 TO YOU AND YOUR ANGEL XXX
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LOVE ALWAYS ELAINE AND MY ANGELS XXX
MERRY CHRISTMAS MY GTS FRIEND XXXXXX
I'd like to say a big THANK YOU for all your support during 2008 for me and my little princess niece demi-leigh and my mum and dad. All the lovely candles, verses and beautiful pictures have meant so much to me.
I wish you all the best for 2009 and send you and your angels all my love xxxxxxx
ELAINE XXXX
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MERRY CHRISTMAS ANGELS
A Christmas Wish
How very much you're missed
Isn't easy to explain
For, words never could convey
The sadness and the pain.
Although gone now from this life
You've left memories to treasure
That are the sweetest kind
And will softly stay forever.
At Christmastime especially
You're missed throughout each day
And all those lovely memories
Are with us, here to stay
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Christmas in Heaven
by Unknown
'Tis Christmas in Heaven
What a beautiful sight!
It's wonderful here;
Everything is all right.
The crib is adorned
With the brilliance of stars,
Wisemen have come
From Venus and Mars.
I've met all our dear ones
Who preceded us here;
The reunion was lovely,
An event full of cheer.
And tonight we'll all gather,
In reverence we'll kneel,
For the Babe in the cradle
Up in Heaven is Real.
I think of my family
that I left behind
And I pray that your Christmas
Is as blessed as mine
Please shed no more tears,
For my soul is at rest,
Just love one another;
Live life to its best.
Yes, It's Christmas In Heaven,
So I've heard them say,
Yet, Christmas In Heaven
Happens every day.
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Love always elaine xxxxxxx
A Christmas Present
It's Christmas and I'll miss you
You'll never know how much
The greatest thing I could get
Would be just to feel your touch.
I know you're safe in God's arms
And you're as happy as can be
And I know that I'm being selfish
To want you here with me.
Have a lovely Christmas
I'll get by, you'll see
Just Promise me on Christmas day
That you will think of me.
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Love elaine xxxxxxx
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_________I Hope You Have A Nice Day On
________Christmas Day, Filled With Lots Of
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______Lots Of Nice Foods, And Candies. I Hope
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sending you lots of love and hugs for christmas xxxxxxx
♥ ♰ ♥ ♰ TO MY DEAR FRIEND ♥ ♰ ♥ ♰
MERRY CHRISTMAS XXXXXX
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My Christmas Wish For You
My Christmas wish for you, my friend
Is not a simple one
For I wish you hope and joy and peace
Days filled with warmth and sun
I wish you love and friendship too
Throughout the coming year
Lots of laughter and happiness
To fill your world with cheer
May you count your blessings, one by one
And when totaled by the lot
May you find all you've been given
To be more than what you sought
May your journeys be short, your burdens light
May your spirit never grow old
May all your clouds have silver linings
And your rainbows pots of gold
I wish this all and so much more
May all your dreams come true
May you have a Merry Christmas friend
And a happy New Year, too.
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Thank you for all your support on my mum, dad and demi-leighs sites...all your lovely candles, pics and tributes really mean so much to me.
Love always to you my friend and your angel xxxxxxxx
.'Christmas in Heaven'
I see the countless Christmas trees around the world below
with tiny lights like heaven's stars reflecting on the snow.
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The sight is so spectacular please wipe away that tear
for I am spending Christmas with Jesus Christ this year.
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I hear the many Christmas songs that people hold so dear
but the sounds of music can't compare with the Christmas choir up here.
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I have no words to tell you of the joy their voices bring
for it is beyond description to hear the angels sing.
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I know how much you miss me, I see the pain inside your heart
for I am spending Christmas with Jesus Christ this year.
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I can't tell you of the splendor or the peace here in this place
Can you just imagine Christmas with our Savior face to face?
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I'll ask him to lift your spirit as I tell you of your love
so then pray for one another as you lift your eyes above.
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Please let your hearts be joyful and let your spirit sing
for I am spending Christmas in heaven and I'm walking with the King.
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OUR LOVE ALWAYS ELAINE AND
MY ANGELS XXX
ANGEL WINGS YOU WEAR...♥ღ♥
The day you left broke our hearts
and the tears fell like rain,
but knowing that you now have wings
helps to ease the pain.
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We know now when the snow falls
it is Angel dust from you
and when we see a shooting star
our Angel just passed through.
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The rain drops do not make us sad
for they are not tears,
but sprinkles of love falling down,
our Angel again is near.
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The winter cold has even changed,
Jack Frost no longer exists,
it's now a visit from our Angel
and he's left a special gift.
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You also visit in the night,
your wings flutter with grace,
we know now when we awaken
that an Angel has kissed our face.
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When the days are warm and bright
and the sun shines from above,
we feel the warmth wrap around us,
you've given an Angel hug.
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You are with us at all times,
every day and night,
you try to end the pain we have
and the tears that we still cry.
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Though Heaven is your home now
and Angel wings you wear,
you stay close to those you love,
until they join you there.
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Written by: Dolly Lee
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Love always elaine xxxxxxxx
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